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Mood Check

  MOOD: I am in a irritable mood. I feel depressed at a 4/10. ANXIETY: I feel anxious at 8/10. SITUATIONAL STRESSORS: Scott and I got in an argument when I got home from work. As soon as I got home, he started in about Jolie never doing anything around here. Then he said she'll be 18 soon and she will move away for college and Adi will get the BMW. Afterwards, we fought for about an hour. I told him no matter how long of a day I've had, I still come home to the house being a disaster. Once again he brought up Jolie and why isn't she here doing things. "All she does is take and never gives back." Now, he's working on the sink and he's frustrated because he can't figure out how to take off the sink handle. He keeps screaming because he is hurting himself. SOMATIC: I'm very tired. My head hurts and my left eyelid feels like I'm getting a stye. I have random stomach cramps. SLEEP: I slept solidly from 11 pm to 8 am. ENERGY: I feel exhausted after w...

Mood Check 11/06/2020

  MOOD: Currently my mood is "irritated" Depressed at 3/10. ANXIETY: My anxiety level is 2/10. SITUATIONAL STRESSORS: Scott complained that there was "no food in the house" last night while I was in the middle of working on homework with Jaden. He said "do we have to sell your car to pay for food?" He apologized later, but it's difficult to accept his apologies when he doesn't change his behaviors. This morning, he woke me up several times. Once was to tell me I had bad breath and do I want a mint. Once was to tell me he was going to Mixwells tonight, which feels like a punishment for not having sex with him for the past few days while I was on my period. Once was to ask me to scratch his back. Then he wanted me to massage his back. Then he put his fingers into the front of my pajama pants. Also, he asked me to roll over so he could "cuddle" once he had woken me up and I realized I needed to start waking up so I could get ready to see my ...